Today, I just wanted to write a blog about my mom, who I miss more than anything. Exactly ten years ago from today, I lost my mom from a battle with cancer. She joined our heavenly Daddy at age 35. I can hardly believe that ten years of my life has gone by without her here beside me. I do know that she is with me at all times in spirit. Ten birthdays, ten Christmas', ten Mother's Day's, ten Valentines Day's, all those special moments everyone wants to spend with their mom. Those days I always spend a moment to think of her. My mom is always and will forever be in my heart. That is one promise God has made me.
All the memories I have, I hold on to. All the precious comments family and friends give me about how much I favor my mom, I treasure. I thank God for those. And best friends are one of the absolute bests at these. I got a special text from my sister last night that read, "Just remember that she's watching over you and is always with you. You see your mom everyday when you look in the mirror because you look so much like her!" I only hope to have a strong faith, marriage, and confidence just as she had as I get older. A mother's footsteps should leave the perfect tracks for her child to follow. My mother's were just that. And I pray that God will help me follow them step by step and not venture off. One day I will be where she is. That place is a sweet sweet place. Sweeter than anything you could ever imagine. To know that she is safe in that place brings me peace and comfort. She has no more pain, no worries, and definitely sees no evil. It's all just a bunch of great big sweetness!! I wouldn't couldn't bring her back for anything if I was given the chance because I know Jesus is holding her even closer now. It's like the song "Life Is Sweeter" by The Afters says:
"So far from where you are
But I feel you with me
Your in the place where I belong
Where my life is waiting
As I watch the rising of the sun
I pray that I could have just one
Chance to say goodnight
I never want to say goodbye
Life is sweeter, sweeter
On the other side, on the other side
I will see you, see you
On the other side, on the other side
I'll find the stars to light me through
I'll find a way to get to you
Life is sweeter on the other side of here"
My mom may not be here in physical form to help raise me and set that motherly figure example for me as I get older. But I'll tell you, all the way from Heaven, she's still doing her motherly job. Because I look up to the woman she was and know that someday I want to be just that.
And I know one thing is for certain. God held me that night of September 18, 2001. He continues to hold me when it gets tough. I believe that with all of my heart. Ask me why? ..because I can feel Him strengthening me in the moments I need Him most. When we feel we are falling apart and can't go any further...it is God who brings us through, gives us the strength we need, and provides. He holds us together when everything is falling apart. We couldn't do anything without our heavenly Daddy.
I love you and miss you mom. One day I will see you again, in the place where life is sweeter. Heaven.
~Melissa
